In regards to real life, I'm turning 27 next month. Which makes me feel old. Because I am old. I'm like a fucking fossil with my ancient Kpop love and my sagging face skin and holy shit my hands look all liney and shit. One of the few things softening this blow is the knowledge that everything else gets a year older with me.
Which brings me to my next problem. Niel is going to be eighteen in August, according to the real math of the real non-Korea world. This seems so trivial and stupid and against the problem everyone else is having but I just don't know what I'm going to do with myself. I'm going to have to put an immediate stop to all of those weird daytime thoughts where I take him to the park and buy him a new jacket and make sure he's tucked in at night. My mothermode is so out of control, I'm going to need to have real kids soon or fucking something because I seriously feel heartbroken over this.
And then there's EXO. No, actually, no. I'm not going there.
AND WHERE THE FUCK IS BEAST. WHEN ARE THEY COMING BACK TO ME. I WANT TO DIE.